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Ryan's Bed by Tijan
on January 22, 2018
Source: Bocci PR
I crawled into Ryan Jensen’s bed that first night by accident.
I barely knew him. I thought it was his sister’s bed—her room. It took seconds to realize my error, and I should've left...
I didn’t jump out.
I didn’t get embarrassed.
And that night, in that moment, it was the only thing I craved.
I asked to stay. He let me, and I slept.
The truth? I never wanted to leave his bed. If I could've stayed forever, I would have.
He became my sanctuary.
Because—four hours earlier—my twin sister killed herself.
I had started Ryan’s Bed over a year ago on Wattpad. I thought I knew this story. I didn’t. I thought I had it all figured out. I hadn’t. I thought it was going to be like Fallen Crest. It wasn’t.
Ryan’s Bed is a sad story, devastatingly sad premise, but the tone overall didn’t make me cry. I was more or less along for the journey with Mac. I knew she had a secret. I desperate to know what it was. I was glad I didn’t end up skipping ahead, I loved watching the story unfold organically.
I can’t even begin to fathom what Willow is going through. But what is really cool, is that Ryan could fathom it and he was there for her that night that she crawled into his bed. I loved watching this story unfold, the way that Willow was able to bring awareness to the difficult situation. To the taboo subject of teen suicide that we would all rather ignore than face head on.
Sitting her finishing up Ryan’s Bed has me reeling. I have questions that will haunt me for a long time and it brings me back to high school when I girl killed herself at the school. When suicide is involved there will always be questions. Those of us still alive will never understand it. It’s not something we can comprehend because we are not in that head space. As much as I would love more answers from Ryan’s Bed and would to have it told in a different perspective. I understand why the story ended the way it did.
Ryan’s Bed is a story of dealing with life, even when it’s difficult and it shows us compassion in the most unlikely places and that people really do care.